It's been nearly a year since my last posted blog. Almost a year off of that unknown feeling of excitement sewing words after words to create the threads of written lines predominantly to express ideas swimming, racing and freeing out of my chest. For quite some time, I felt that faint joy in a corner of my mind for not writing anything that my thoughts bring me but surely a day will come when you would stare at the wall and wonder at the story lines you would have written if you just flipped up your laptop screen and drum your fingers over the keys within that eleven months that passed. I never regret it for now I know I missed what I missed and I want to go back to that same old feeling of excitement whenever I would open my machine or just stare at the walls. Looking straight up the ceiling now with two lizards near the light bulb waiting to jump at the closest insect to cross their way, I know that day has come.
It takes a great load of inspiration to write. When emotions run high with stars twinkling up above your own sky and your own universe, you can sum your ideas up and sweep the paper with thoughts in as fast as the flash floods hit Metro Manila. For some unknown reason, I hardly find that urge -that emotion. It could be the burning out of my strength finishing two major tasks almost at the same time last year: The Regional Jazz Chants contest and the division IMMTS where I had mediocre performances despite the tries. It was when you summon your strength and after the last drop of sweat fell, all you want to do is lay down, forget everything and take a big, big break. Maybe. It took me almost a year before I felt the same urge to press the start button and go clearing out the cobwebs and the mental rust that had engulfed me for a while. Proof of that is this piece when I won't expect to create a masterpiece. Just an initial outburst that would flood my memory and stretch another myriads of emotions to clear the bottleneck of thoughts. Such inspiration can be driven out of anything -from soft chewing gums to politics, from that tasty sopas to philosophy. Funny that I came out actually from one unexpected twist.
Only last Friday that I decided to erase most of what I had compiled in my personal website, www.jerwynlabagnoy.tk, for the last four and a half years. It was a day I knew I had to remake it to give me some needed budge to speak my mind once again. It maybe was a little painful but the way I selected and deleted most of what had been there for that stretch of time was also a bit of joy for I know unless I put it up again, then I will see its nonfunctional state or its ultimate demise forever. So I picked up the earlier but decided to remake as I glide my way up to it. To reach that new height, I need to start moving my feet and walk -even slowly- to finish what I started.
